~MuSiC wOrLd~

finally alpha year over….really learnt lots a lot of thing …

1st i learnt from experienced ,not to trust people easily

2nd not to put too deep feeling in a relationship ..if not…anything happen ..v r the person who suffer and hurt by it …..

3rd learn to be tough whenever v face any problem ..

i believe in if v do something good,the GOD will give the good thing back to us ….but if those who always do the bad thing ,they will get the revenge ….in other words ..those who betrayed ,cheated ,hurt and bluff me before ,they will get the balasan soon …not i’m too cruel or evil …in fact they r more evil,devil and cruel than me and all these already over my limitation to stand for it …so i hope GOD can give me strength to overcome it …and give punishment to the evil person ….muahahhaa…….

Since i cant post this into the pattern group discussion board ..so i post in my blog lar …hope u all enjoy reading ..hehhee

p/s click this link http://www.petalia.org/Songs/Shining_friend.htm and feel the song and lyrics while reading my long long essay…hahaha

Recall back 1 year b4,the 1st day i step in to the economic class.Seriously,b4 that i juz know Zheng Ling will same class with me ..the other 1 is Li Kee and shery…at that time,i dunno u all yet (those from PM11 de) … Nearly end of the 1st sem ,Wei Loon starting to talk with me and finally i discovered he same surname with me GAN..and finally he become my ‘dailou’…He is the 1 who bring me to join u all …Seriously,i really feel very happy …bcoz u all surely will call me when got any gathering …I think the 1st gathering is the BBQ nite loh ..and i never forget u all celebrated my ’suprise 18th bday’with me..haha.From the small circle i get to know lots of ‘cute’ friendssss (paiseh too many people liao ,hard to mention 1 by 1)… :d thanks to Johnson and Yuan Shun always there to be my listener+be my ‘driver’sometime..haha..shirly and xiang hui,i will never forget the midnite show watch with u all de(XH still rmb v trying to tie de red string with sumbody??haha)

Zhong Dien,fish,dajie,mandy thanks for willing share u all de thing with me …last but not least ,of course i’m happy to know my sam sam darling Samantha and ah ping jie still rmb the nite v shopping together with ling jie??)hehe..finally,our san jiao guan xi settle liao ..arhaha…(ping jie,i will not leave u alone de lar …sam and me will not forget u de ..although u r goin to cyber soon …) :p

Finally i get a PATTERN KING SIFU …KFC or KKK(kiasu,kiasi and kia police)????haha…the most pattern person in the pattern group.(he told me no need study pbs chap 7,8,9 but that exam morning,he said "hey,pbs chap 7,8,9 are the easier to get marks leh,u should do that Q".U all see lar..i will kekdao or not :???Summore,the acc he said "sure 2 chap in 1 Q de lar ..comfirm 5 and 6 together de lar)..mana tau exam 5 mix with 8 loh)..keksi loh me.. Oh ya,I have to thanks him for teaching me when i face any academic problem …watever i ask him,he sure answer me de …thru MSN summore leh …(too bad sifu goin to cyber loh,nobody pattern at melaka d…SIFU,v surely will miss u de..HAPPY MAH?? ) haha…

ya ..got 1 thing i’m touched with is last tuesday ,shun,sifu,sam,johnson and ping jie …v study the acc together …thanks GOD i went to ping jie house and revise acc…if not my acc surely ‘die’..y i say touched leh ??is bcoz ping jie and kfc de teaching..their explanation make me understand better to the acc…at that moment,I really dun feel like want u them leave melaka to cyber leh bcoz i will miss the day having study group together leh… (*paiseh,those people i din mention de not bcoz i forget u all ..is i havent think of the interesting part with u all de)..

Friends,

Finally all these things already become parts of our memory in our life.After this pattern nite,will v meet again in future???I’m sure v will meet again ..cz v got the jodoh to know each other and of course v got the fate to meet other too …When u all lonely or sad ,try to recall those days v be together(LUAN CHAT ROOM IN MSN).Think of the happy moment v get together ..It will bring happiness to u de ..trust me ..haha …Lastly,thankssss u all for being my friend.Although i’m not from PM11..u all really treat me very well ….thanks you very much …  :d    

                                               ~friendship Forever~

原来已一个月多没post blog 了，突然有心情要写自己的感情事。既然这样多人问我为何，那我就只好post在这儿了。
    二零零六年的某月某日，小女子遇到了一个他。他给我的感觉真的好特别。可是那时的他确实有了女友。那时的我的却对他就只有欣赏吧!！有一段时期突然与他很好谈。。可说时无所不谈吧！不久之后，得知他与那时的女友分手了。。至于分手的原因，本女子并不清楚。。只知道100%不是我引起的，而是另有其人。而单纯的我就以为是他们两人不合吧。我也没去理会那么多。过后得知他与那另有其人也只是个误会。
    时间一分一秒的过，彼此相处的时间也越来越多。他给我的感觉真的好特别，那种感觉就真的想要和他在一起。。相处了一段时期后，小女子突然有种力量和勇气暗示他哦！！可是接到的答案确是他只当我是一般上的朋友。。那时的我还有点心酸的。。可是其实还好，他的答案并没给我很大的影响。。。不久之后，他又向我表白。。一时之间的我也不知该如何接受。。就说若他有勇气就在我面前表白吧！！结果第二天的下午，就真的向我再次的表白了。。不知不觉的我也就这样答应了。。。
    一开始， 是真的幸福和甜蜜的，一切都很好。。。直到突然有一天，他犯下不该犯的错。。（至于什么事我就免提了）。。。（也不知是那女子对我故意示威还是真的想让我知道那件事？？）好无奈啊！！！知道那件事的人并不多。。那时的他也知错了。。他恳求我再给他一次机会，原谅他的错。。。是我太心软还是什么呢？？毕竟他也曾经为我付出过，也为我办了一个难忘的生日会。。。所以就再给他机会了。。
    两人的问题开始该是这个吧。。。他说他还爱那时的前女友，可是也同时的爱上了我。。。好荒谬对吗？？他说他是逼自己与那时的前女友分手。。。听了好更荒谬对吗？？逼？？他说那女子为他付出了许多，他觉得自己不配有那么好的女友，所以就这样分了。。。。我的天啊！！！真的好气他为何不告诉我真正的原因 。。。也许我就不会开始这段感情了。。。。以前人总会说“爱情是盲目的”。。那时的我就真的陷在爱里了。。。既然答应给他时间忘记他的往事 。。。（我想你们看了我这样的决定该会笑我笨吧）。。发生这事情过后，其实我俩的感情还不错。一段时期后，他越表现没事清，我就也觉得他还是有事瞒住我。。。原来是他始终放不下他那时的前女友。。。那种感觉真得很不好受，我宁愿选择退出。。。我不相对住一个心里还爱着别人的人。。。所以我竟然再让他选择他自己想要的那个她。。。可是当时的他对我说他不想失去我，还说与她已经不可能了，因为对方已有了新的男友。。听了后，我觉得过去的事情就算了。。是我答应给他机会，我真的好希望他能忘掉以前的一切。。。
    在他生日的那一天，他post了一个blog。。看了候真的好心酸。。。我不知他写的目的是否真的只不过是要写他的过去，还是要让人知道对他来说她有多好。就很像她是他的天使似的。。我要的只是一个解释，难道就不能给我吗？？？基本上我并不介意他述说他的过去，只是介意为何他不提及我在他的blog里。。至少让我知道他心里还有我。。。为了这事，我没主动和他说话。。我还气他。。真的好无奈啊！！我没想到后来的结果是分手。。。真的没想到这样快。。。太快了。。。接到他的信息时，真的好心痛。。心痛的是这段感情就这样结束了。。虽然这段感情真的好多波折。爱情本来就得经得起考验。。我又能怎样呢？？若他心不在我这儿，我留住也没用。。。就顺他意了。。不久后他告诉我他已放下以前的事。。虽然分了，对他的思念还是有的。。。可是就只能压抑住自己的情绪。。慢慢去接受这事实。。。
    天啊！！！谁知有一天，他又让我心动了。。。给我的感觉他是有苦衷的。。总觉得我们还能在一起回的机会。。。某一天我竟然又问起当时分手的原因  ，原来原因还是一样。他最后得知是他的错，他不想在伤害我。。实际上我们开始这段感情就是错的。。。天啊！！当初是他选择了我，但是他并没努力的忘记他的过去。。太过分了耶！！既然还说当时是我先暗示，让他不知如何拒绝我。是我影响了他？？？甚至说我不听取别人的意见，处处都觉得自己是对的。（坦白说某些事情上，我并不觉得对方是对的，我也有我的立场）。。。天啊！！怎会搞到这种地步？？？争吵了好久 ，我就知没机会了。。。我也没怎样。。juz let it be …
原本的他打算去cyber读书，结果突然告诉我他没去cyber的原因部分也是为了我。。。我真的不敢信了。。。事情就这样告一段落了。。。。

曾经他给过我的承诺都是假的吗？？曾经的我很努力的挽回这段感情，我相信的
是他给过的承诺。。。但是为何他就不能为了我实现他的诺言吗？？初恋本来就是个很微妙，很幸福的东西。。。为何我的初恋竟然是这样的结果呢/？？？就这样
的结束了。。。是上天对我的惩法还是什么呢？？惩罚我当时那么渴望爱情的到来，给了我后就剥削掉这一切。。。？？是我爱上不该爱的人吗？？明知道不该再思念他了，结果有时还是办不到。。。无奈真的好无奈。。。。!!！

    要放下你曾经爱过的人，真的是件困难的事。。唯有让时间冲淡一切吧。。至于他，我有感而发。在他做出决定的那一刻，必须顾及别人的感受。。有些事并不是他想要做就做的。。他的一个决定给了我希望，可是却又给了我一场噩梦。。往往的他并没察觉到他已间接的伤害了人。。真是的。。我无话可说了。。。。
   
    累了。。真的好累啊！！！。。。一切交由上天决定吧。。。。

今天真的好高兴，我了解也清楚某些事情了。我不须活在犹豫不决，怀疑，矛盾的日子了。有时善意的谎言固然是好，可是往往会造成更多的问题和误会。当你说了善意的谎言于对方，你可想象对方被蒙在谷里又不知情不知道真相，那种感觉真的好无辜啊！！！到头来你只会造成对方胡思乱想和不知所措  。。所以朋友们，该说出真相的时候还是得说。要不然后果更不堪设想了。。。

这次的假期真的好无聊，处了看电视还是电视。上星期给我看完了“肥田喜事”。就让我讲讲里头的故事吧！！肥田也就是胡杏儿一直都在寻求和他心灵相同的人。她把一幅画沾上了手掌印，不会欣赏的人就会说他侮辱那幅画。若和他心灵相通的人就会把它画成太阳花。就这样寻寻觅觅，终于给她找到了。那心灵相通的人也就是daniel许志安（设计师）。可是那时Daniel已有了女朋友，肥田怎么可能向他表白呢！！所谓日久生情，Daniel发现他真真喜欢的人是肥田。可是肥田又不想被列为第三者，三翻四次的回避她，甚至飞回菲律宾。之前肥田也有被一位痴情的男生追，因为它的痴情搞到肥田差一点要嫁给他了。可是到最后还是嫁不成，因为她清楚了解自己爱的是和她心灵相通的人。她不可以欺骗那男子。。Daniel的女友，了解他的心已不再她那儿而是在肥田那儿，所以就决定了分手。（爱情本来就没有对于错，与其纠缠下去不如成全及祝福他们。虽然换来的代价会很伤，可是勉强终是没幸福的。或许她可以找到更爱她的男人）。。。

就这样daniel与肥田就在一起了。说回Daniel,他的设计一路以来都不做给身体比较大的人。她也答应前女友不会再做大麻衣。就因为肥田，他设计了那些衣服而且还参加了展览。因为肥的人一样可以穿的美。。这也是肥田告诉过他的。。。可是没人知道他的苦心。。。肥田劝他不要在做大麻衣了，可是他没听。肥田只好飞回菲律宾。。。到最后展览成功了，所谓有情人终成眷属和心灵相通的人。。最后还是在一起了。。。

看完这套戏后，肥的人一样嫁的出啊！！所以朋友们，你是否已找到和你心灵相通的人呢？？哈哈！！！祝你们好运哦！！！

My 18th birthday ….

19.12.2006

1st thanks for the early celebration from my 3 ‘mom’ Amy,seow yih and lee hong….they celebrated my bday at wings on tuesday (19.12.2006)..that day is ladies nite ..so every lady got 1 free drink..the singers like can read our mind,they sing all the songs that v want…happy man ..and the singer sang birthday song special for me ..the cake put in-front of me by a waiter …another free drink for me …arhaha …of course never forget to snap photos loh …then my nai ma seow yih wants me to bite the candles …face kena choclates n cream …but still ok lar ..juz oily nia ..not kena very charm ..hehe ….about 11.30p.m ,got a lucky draw session ..whole nite juz got 1 lucky person can get the present…and the lucky person is amy loh .haha..get 2 bears .1 is male bear n the other 1 is female bear ..so she gave me the male bear …arhaha …cute lar …that is all for that nite …

20.12.2006

Amy fetch me back …when on the way back ,i received RO call…my best best friend since primary sch until now …v will be the 1st person to wish each other ‘happy birthday’ since dunno when lar ..arhaha….Rosanne,thanks for ur wishes loh …feel so paiseh that day …act can talk longer with u de ..(nan de u tis kedekut girl will call me till so long)..haha ..but due to some special case …received someone special call …so i terpaksa to end the call with u loh ..hope u wont angry lar hor) ..hehe ..but tis doesn’t mean i ‘yao yi seng,mou yan seng ‘ arr..haha ….after 2 call ,then i received about 15 sms from friends i think on that day ..so happy …wakaka ……

in the morning 8a.m have to go to sch summore …that day got econ presentation summore ….erhem….how to describe my feeling in the sch leh ??everyone seems like very weird de …but i know what is going on ..how to say leh ..???ok lar ..i juz shorthen my story here ..my classmates want to have a suprise birthday celebration for me at nite at my house…tis idea is from someone too …really nobody tell me about that also ….even my best friends shery ,likee and carol never tell me also …2days before my bday,someone tot i already know about it(act i dunno at all) …so he mention about it ..finally i know it from tis way ..arhaha ..wat i can do is juz pretend i dunno anything ….my class until 6p.m ,that day zhong dien fetch me back ..b4 that mom told me malim and taman merdeka flood .cant use the road back to home ..so terpaksa use bukit baru road back to home loh …OMG ,on the way bc damn traffic jam ..at that moment,i sms my dear ..told him no need come to my house celebrate for me d ..coz it is really make them trouble if come to my house …about 8 something ,finally they reach my house …act they wanna press the door bell when they reach ..but so happen ,my neighbour wanna pass my present to me…so ngam ,they also reach my house …so tak jadi press my door bell liao …haha ..wow,i really shock that they brought KFC and pizza here …(coz normally celebration is juz a cake)..coz zheng ling have to back early then i have to blow my cake earlier .the cake is also for carol ,coz her bday on the next day (21.12.2006)haha..that nite got Karaoke session for them ..after that,bro wei loon,fu cai and johnson was playing mahjong ….so meriah ….really happy …

To my friends ,although i already know about the bday party ,i still feel very gan dong with it ..coz of the flood make me so worried ..that week is our presentation week somemore ..and final exam coming soon too …but u all still willing to sacrifice ur precious time celebrate with me …i really happy about that .seriously,tis is my 1st time got so many friendsss celebrate birthday with me .Thank a lot friendsss ,let me have a wonderful 18th birthday …

finally ,of course is thanks my dear ..thanks for planning the birthday party for me .u did lots of things for me ..i really appreciate it ..the way u gave me present was so special …hide the present sum where at my house and want me search for it ..but finally u have to told me where u put also ..arhaha …

still got something to say ….have to thanks my daddy and mummy bring me to tis world ..let me feel what is a happy family..let me got the chance to see tis world ..let me have the chance to know so many friendssss …..

daddy,although i juz can be with u for the pass 15 years ,i’m still happy with that ..u let me think of must appreciate what i’m having now ..whatever history had become part of our memory …i will never forget about it …i know u r always there to protect whole family …when i face problem,u give me a energy to solve the problem ..dad,thanks a lot …love u …

mummy,finally i’m 18 years old …i know what am i surpose to do …but sometime need u to direct me also ..when i look at u ..i tell myself i must be strong …i must live happily…mum,thanks for take care of me for 18 years….love u too ..

my sis …especially my 3rd sis ..i know u want to say me big already so dun ’sa jiao’  liao rite ..but i’m the youngest in the house ..so i sa jiao in-front of u all is very normal de loh ..arhaha …sis ,thanks for ur encouragement ..thanks for encouraging me when i’m down …love u my sis …