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05
Jan

failure planner….

hmm…how to describe my feeling now ohh.???

Juz finish my final exam,I should be very happy ..but my feeling is not wor …i felt myself so bad …not a good planner …oh no…..

today see,san and her bf came to malacca ..

I felt that it is so unlucky today ….i brought them to mp and dp ..when the time v wanan back home ..it was a heavy rain ..coz rush our time ,I need to pay the RM16 to buy an umbrella and run to mp get the car.. .after back to house bathe then went to eat satay celup …Later,v went to meet yun fong at simply fish ..to celebrate her bday ….it was a suprise for her…haha……everything still getting smoothly de …..but i juz felt bad that i neglect my NS friends already …i’m sure they are not very enjoy …2 gang of friends ..1 gang is MMU,another gang is NS ….it is hard for me to do while they are not really know one another well….they got no topic to say ….i really felt so sorry to see,san and her bf …so sorry ohhh…..another unlucky thing is …san’s housemate lost the house key …so they all have to rush back to sungai long at 12.40a.m for saving their housemates …OH GOSH!!!!…cant her housemates tumpang other people house …need to call the friends that still at melaka ?????haizzzz…really sad about it ….i never really chit chat well with san and see …i feeling so bad now …wat I can said ..is SORRY for not giving u all a memorable tour …….-_-

19
Dec

thanks for the early birthday celebration ….

hohoho…so fast..another year gone…..finally,i’m 19th now..hahaha….

lets story telling now ….ytd(19.12.2007),i went to tesco with mom and sis in the evening…b4 that i was chatting with sam and johnson …sam asked me to stay at home..i tot she asked me to stay at home at nite ..haha…who knows ..actually they wan to come to my house in the evening without informing me ..thier plan is buy kfc and luan at my house ..haha…but finally i spoilt their plan …coz i followed my mom to tesco ..hoho….

so they changed their plan to red square …ask me wanna join or not ..of course i want ..coz singing is my favourite ..hehe..they came to tesco and fetch me …when i step up to johnson’s car ..the 1st word i heard is "noob" loh…said by Mr.Johnson…ahduh..haha..followed up i received many ‘boom’ loh….on the way to red square ..i received my 1st birthday present from likee,shery and sam…it is a white bag …very nice..haha…i like it so much …..v sang until 7p.m something then went to biz lounge took our dinner and celebrated my birthday at there …hoho…happened many funny thing at there .v play "true or Dare"…shery,johnson and sam were dancing …haha…after that, weiloon came to join us ….all of us having fun there ….10p.m something ,sam gonna join her housemate who goin to cyber study soon….then wei loon goin back ..then the rest of us went to portuguese settlement….

Hurray ..next round is Portuguese Settlement…too bad ..v dun have camera ….too wasted ..but then…thanks god i got a relative who stay nearby there …so i borrow camera from my relative ..haha…..my cousin sister followed me to there and become our photographer ..haha….the lighting is so nice ….a bit traffic jam there ….really happy leh …all of them acc me to the village …

shery,likee,sam,zhongdien ,johnson and weiloon…thanks for celebrating my 19th birthday ……i really appreciated it and enjoy it …thank a lot ….thanks for acc me for the whole day ..haha…..

what will happen on today ???dunno yet ..mayb juz stay at home ..coz other friends are busy rite now ..hehe…..

04
Dec

lAzY mOod

juz can use 1 word to describe…BUSY …..actually i got plenty of works to do ..but juz becoz of the lazy mood ..make me dun feel like wanna do the thing ..but once the deadline is coming …no matter how lazy I’m ..I still got some energy push me to do it …..
cyberpre, assignment, presentation, final exam, funding ……….OMG…i tell myself i’m not surpose to have such attitude …i must complete my job effectively and efficiently …..all the best to me …….

27
Oct

MuSiC brings lots of memories to me …

OMG….keep on eating during holidays …i’m gonna out of shape soon……….but no worries….i sure will control myself and slim down de…hahaaa….

hmm,recently juz finish watching a japanese drama named "交响情人梦”….OMG,i fall in love in that drama ….coz is all about music ….is about a orchestra …let me roughly describe the story ….the actor met a famous conductor since small in australia.He is quite sensitive to music. 1 day he need to fly back to Japan with his family. Before he fly back, he told the conductor pls keep him as his ‘ 徒弟’ …then the conductor said yes ..already is his tu di …when on the flight, the aeroplane break down and juz got 1 old man died in heart attact. Since that time he scared to sit aeroplane coz he faced the 飞机恐惧症….

When he grow up he study in a music sch, he learn to play piano and he can play very well .His dream is go to australia to become a conductor but because of he scared of take aeroplane so he cannot let his dream come true …

1 day, a girl met him outside her house. The girl take him into her house because he was drunk ..juz leave him a side…the next day, the wonderful piano sound made him a wake ….now,he juz realised actually have such a talented people in Japan. Although she is quite outstanding compare to other people.She can memorise the whole melody.Somehow, she will juz play the piano based on her own feeling. This is wat he dun like ..coz she is juz like composing her own song .Playing neither Beethoven nor Chopin’s pieces….Most of the people like the actor becoz he is very execellent in the music field .The atress is quite childish,juz like that type of happy go lucky person and many more….of course she also fall in love to the actor..but the actor seems like dun have any feeling to her ..coz due to her attitude….

in between happened many interesting thing. about the orchestra performance ….how they form a orchestra ,how they help each other……bla bla bla…

Finally, the guy not scare of taking the aeroplane anymore .He realised he also fall in love to that girl.He went to the girl hometown and find the girl. He hug the girl and asked her to follow him to australia …..wow….so romantic……….hahahaha…..

This drama inspired me alot…When they face the difficulties in the orchestra, they will find way to solve it …United is the most important in 1 team. Everyone given their heart and contribute in the orchestra. Got 1 sentence I found that is quite true, ‘ believe in urself, do not bother wat people said and playing in ur own style’ . In my opinion, this will make urself perform the real and origin of ownself. Sometime, it will happen some miracles …Once the performance over, the audience will shout ‘BRAVO’ and give a loud applause …wow…how i wish got 1 day i can feel that too ….hahaha……and i hope got such talented people hug me and says follow him to sumewhere …..hohoho….so wonderful…..the feeling of watching this drama are sweet, hoping, and wondering….haha…..Somehow, I will feel regret y i never continue to study music after form5 …mayb the people around me are those talented people …everyone is the music lover….we can share the music and living in the music world together ……

How i wish to form a choir or band in MMU now…….Miss my secondary schooling time….never miss out any music stuff….Still rmb, I started to learn piano and join choir since i was in primary sch. Grade 3 got a distinction result and my choir got the chance to represent Melaka to participate final in Perak….I am proud of it loh……Until I studied in secondary school, I still got the chance to join choir in school and buddhist society….. In 2002, our school choir got champion and represent Melaka to take part the final competition in Perlis…..Wow…another wonderful memories for me ……for the choir in buddhist society ,we got the champion tooo…..I became conductor ,pianist and singer for both choir ……and everytime got the excellent result ..

I really miss it so much ……i miss the day can join all this music stuff…but now the life in MMU ,dun seems like I like …..i’m still thinking y that time i dun have the courage to study in music and finally choose to study management ….really dunno y …haizzz….I lost that type of life i want in MMU ….I’m totally lost any music stuff in MMU ….I must find myself back to the life that I want …bless me plssss ……

24
Oct

感谢曾经陪我度过难关的朋友

终于想通了,过了的事情就让它过去。一切重新再来,相信我能活得比别人更精彩。谢谢一路以来与我分享心事的朋友。例如:kaelei, meilin, wanching,shyjing,siauyin,shirly, johnson,yunfong,shery,likee …谢谢你们的聆听..(请原谅我若漏了你的名)。。。。

谢谢你们在我最无助,最彷徨的时候,伸出援手扶我一把。让我了解朋友的意义。你们的关心让我很窝心。你们的劝解点醒了我。你们的耳朵让我不停的发泄。你们的存在让我觉得留下来是值得的。。

谢谢你们的支持。我会铭记在心。当你们伤心难过时,请记得有我在旁陪伴着你们。

17
Oct

中国版岁月风云插曲

歌曲名:秋天不回来
专辑:秋天不回来
演唱:王强

初秋的天 冰冷的夜
回忆慢?br>真心的爱就像落叶
为何却要分开
灰色的天独自彷徨
城市的老地方
真的孤单走过忧伤
心碎还要逞强
想为你披件外衣
天凉要爱惜自己
没有人比我更疼你
告诉你在每个
想你的夜里
我哭的好无力
就让秋风带走我的思念
带走我的泪
我还一直静静守候在
相约的地点
求求老天淋湿我的双眼
冰冻我的心
让我不再苦苦奢求你还
回来我身边 我身边~

音乐。
灰色的天独自彷徨
城市的老地方
真的孤单走过忧伤
心碎还要逞强
想为你披件外衣
天凉要爱惜自己
没有人比我更疼你
告诉你在每个
想你的夜里
我哭的好无力
就让秋风带走我的思念
带走我的泪
我还一直静静守候在
相约的地点
求求老天淋湿我的双眼
冰冻我的心
让我不再苦苦奢求你还
回来我身边 我身边~
就让秋风带走我的思念
带走我的泪
我还一直静静守候在
相约的地点
求求老天淋湿我的双眼
冰冻我的心
让我不再苦苦奢求你还
回来我身边 我身边~
就让秋风带走我的思念
带走我的泪
我还一直静静守候在
相约的地点

15
Sep

thinking…..

Today went to relative house warming.I met a lot of my relatives…I saw my little cousins,nephew and niece are growing up now …make me feel that I’m getting older and older ….hhaaa….nnnooono..should said i’m getting mature..hehe…

time flies,how i gone through for the past 18 years????? Eat,sleep and bathe are daily need loh…haha…YeAh,the most happy and proud thing is I was born with a bit music talent …haha…thanks GOD…I can sing without going for any vocal training ..i got the chance to learn playing piano…need to thanks my daddy and mummy for giving me everything …i guess my singing gene is come from my dad because he loved singing and he can sing very well…really proud of him..but no chance to hear he sing anymore..too bad …anyway his voice is always in my heart…..thanks mom for giving me the chance to learn playing the piano..i’m so lucky compare to those who don’t have the chance to learn…

still got 1 grade to go..when can i complete it and pass with flying colour ???Hopefully Mr.Moh (my previous piano teacher) can give me his precious time for the practicle part …hehe…wait for the day coming ……Do appreciate what r u having right now …God Bless…

06
Sep

what is my LiFe???

finally most of the assignment and presentation finished already .juz left the accounting assignment and management presentation…gambadae ohh..

once assignment and presentation finish.then the most tention moment is around the corne——->FINAL EXAM…haizzz….this semester seems like pass so fast…review back what had i done during the whole semester….busy for assignments,test,quiz and blablabla….so far life is ok …but not as fun as i think …mayb i’m not living in the music environment…my dream not come true yet make me so miserable…haiz…

Lately,friend told me my weakness..let me mention it here …well…the situation is like that ..see the dialog below:

Me:do u have any experience in (topic that v talk about on that day)

A:secret

me:yer…waseh…dun want tell me loh…

Me:ok..nvm…i know everyone got their own secret..is ok if u dun want tell me….

the A start to comment on me …said i shouldn’t asnwer in this way ..will make the person so unhappy …..that person said other people also feel i got this problem ….but y when i talk with my ex-schmate they wont feel that leh ????is it culture not same ????haizzz…

haiz ..what is wrong to me leh????after this inccident..let me felt that my communication to others is so bad ….is people dun understand what am i talking about or my talking skill is really bad???haiz……

recently,cannot find really ‘ngam keng’ people in my Uni leh …y arrR???if want me everything keep in the heart ..that person is not me leh …let me feel so uncomfortable now …yohhh……i feel like wanna shout out now…people living in this world is so reality …i understand there is no any true friend in Uni anymore .We must know how to take care of ourself and have to be more careful when interact with other people…..

Not only that…with sis also got prob …according to feng shui book, dragon and dog really are enemy….this statement i have the proof d …i’m the good example now….sis and me…..haiz ….y everything v will quarel???no matter what v will quarrel also ….big or small matter will quarrel also ….really tired of it …..even if i keep quiet ..she will find thing to quarrel with me …y all these thing happened on me ????people and their sis can be so close but i’m not ..summore this sis is under one roof with me …..i feel so suffering and stress now …..

when all these thing can go far far away from me ????i dun wish any unhappy thing happen in my life anymore leh …..where is the happiness ??where is my happiness ????i felt that i seldom laugh recently…even smile also is a fake smile ..haizzz…..i lost myself again ….life is short,i must learn to enjoy my life …hope everything will become smoothly….God bless me …

13
Aug

dreamss….

green box….when malacca only got green box leh ??????cant wait for it d lar …….

recently made lots of sweet dreamsss …..how come arr???will dream become true??????i hope so …but only true for the sweet and good de …not the bad de …hehe……

busy with assignment and test ….all the best to all my friendss lar …and of course me too ..hehe….

01
Jul

彷徨无助的那一刹那…..

以为自己很快就能放得下咯。。。最近身边的朋友,都面对感情上的问题。。难免又勾起以前的回忆。。

是女人的天性吗??为何他能如此快快乐乐和高高兴兴的过日子。。。而我还为了这些不该回想的事而烦恼呢???有些人说爱一个人就得成全他与别人,改替他高兴。。。有些话能说得天下无敌,但做却无能为力。。。凡事都有例外。。。。

为何当初的他能自私不顾后果就开始了这段感情,结束了这段感情后。最后还是那么自私又开始了另一段感情。。。如果我就那么容易原谅了他所作的一切。。那么又叫谁来帮我痊愈我的伤口呢???

曾经彼此都拥有过一段感情,怎么能说忘就忘呢??感情也许会淡,可是那也需要时间啊!!怎么能说忘就忘的呢??为何别人对我是如此的无情与自私。。。那我又为何要祝福他呢??我干吗要原谅他呢???我恨不得这种人永远消失在我面前。。。恨不得他死了就算了。。。

是我狠吗??还是我毒??我并不觉得。。。我觉得那是我唯一能保护我自己不要再受到伤害。。。让我自己能好过一些。。。

伤心悲痛的是何时才能远离我而去。。。。。快乐幸福美满的日子有何时会到来呢???