Two years in my Uni was gone. Left two more years to go ……. Seriously, what had I did for the past 2 years??? Yes,I got to know lots of friends …some of them are really my true hearted friends …I’m really happy with it …..what make me so upset is I can’t really get an excellent result as I promised myself before. I am feeling so stress and misarable…I can’t imagine what will happen after 2 years…Will I become jobless ??I will jobless for how long?? I dare not to think of it … Ytd i received a good news from second sister. She had strunggling for the past few years ..In the end, she has succeed her dream. Finally, she is a charted accountant now…All of my family members are so pround of her…Congratulation to my Er Jie……Sometime, I am so envy her that her determination to do something is so strong. She never give up when she faced the failure ..This is what I envy her a lot….. Now, is my turn to worry about my future…Mom told me that to pursuade a Master after I complete my degree…I may have the chance to go oversea ..I should be happy actually…but when I think deeply, I will ask myself ..do I have the ability to continue to the high level of education?? I am not that clever like others .In fact, I hate to study..juz dunno y …but in this world is so realistic.. The higher level of education and excellent result u achieve, the higher salary and better job u will get..So continue to study is the only choice I can choose.
As I mentioned in my previous blog, I love music so much. Music is still remain on part of my life. I wish to continue my piano lesson..I wish to take a diploma for my piano academy. The problem is I have to spend money on it. The piano fee is quite expensive. Even the piano exam fee can cost me up to RM 300 something. Mom asked me will I teach others after I completing the diploma…I can’t give an exactly answer to my mom. In my mind, I feel that I should complete the piano lesson. I shouldn’t juz give it up half way. At least the result that I get will be much more better than my education result. Anyhow, I still do not have the confidence on it. There are still something that discourage me to do so. I’m feeling myself so useless and hopeless. How nice if daddy is still beside me and give me some advice on it I knew that it will not happen in my future life. I juz can told myself he is always in my heart to support me and give me the courage to stay strong to face the difficulties. At the same time, I hope to do something that can let mom feel proud of it and make her happy always..Yes, Choon Wei should live strong and succeed her dream. I should tell myself "think I can, I can"…:)
