Well, what a bad day I had on yesterday (friday). The 1st thing I met was mp3 stolen by an ‘IDIOT’ when I was taking my supplementary paper in exam hall. This is because I cannot brought in my bag to my sitting place. Last month, my bag was open by an ‘IDIOT’ when I was taking my final paper too. Luckily, I did not lost anything in that time. MMU can you please improve the security in the campus? I know that I should take out the important thing from my bag. I was careless because of I did not noticed the mp3 is inside my bag. Besides, I feel that MMU security have the responsibily to look after our belongings and notice the suspicious people in the campus. We should prevent before happen it. I had made a complaint to MMU. Hopefully I can get a satisfied answer from them.
The 2nd thing is I quarrel with her again. What did I do wrong?? When I was small, parents always told me must give way to her because her attitude is like this. I dare to say I always bully by her since i was younger than her. I give up all the chances for not quarrel with her. When I grow bigger, I told myself I do not allow people to take advantage on me. Once I meet any unfair matter, I will voice out. Just because of a laptop, we can quarrel also. 1 old PC and 1 new laptop at home. who don’t want to use the new thing?? Why always I have to sacrificed and use the PC?? Why must I let u use when i ‘m using halfway?? Why when u r using halfway, I cannot take it from u??why why why???Although I’m younger than you, seems like I always make the move to avoid the quarrel situation?? Perhaps I should move out, so that i will own a PC or laptop. I need not to share with her. The problem will be able to settle it. The main subject is not on the laptop, it is on your attitude. You will never know how badly your attitude is. Lets talk about my 3rd sister’s convocation. Mom need to attend sis’s convocation so she need to find someone to take care of grandma. Grandma cannot walk well since she was felt down months ago. There are 2 solutions, 1 is send her to my uncle’s house in KL or 1 of us must stay in the house to take care of her. Grandma is not willing to go to KL due to her own reason. I’m sorry to say that she is selfish sometime. May be she scare she will be bored staying in KL??I do not know the reasons…I wish to go to the convocation..but how??? Mom keep on thinking of relative to take care of her. Is better than I take care of her instead of put her in relative house. So ytd i told mom that I will stay at home and take care of her. Is it myself willing to do that?? I don’t have an accurate answer. I just thinking of grandma is old enough, as her grand daughter I should take care of her to reduce the burden of my mom. I can say don’t want to take care of but this prove that i am selfish. I am feeling hard to do that….so back to the person that I quarrel always…she juz think of putting grandma in uncle’s house is the best choice…did she ever said that she want to volunteer to take care of grandma?? I always thinking of FAMILY this words..what it meant exactly??What it mean to her ?? did she ever think that we are their family members?? can’t she take out some LovE to contribute in this family?? why her attitude always like this?? I am feeling sad of it….feel like crying sometime..y i have such sister appear in my life. I remember she told me that I always pretend to be a good person and she be the bad person…This sentence make me felt so dissapointed. Sometimes, there is no choices to have such decision. Perhaps she will never feel that because she do not have any LOVE in her heart. She is a cold blooded people and living in her own world. Seriously, I feel shy to have such sister in my life. Once her attitude does not change, I will never forgive what she did it to me last time.
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miserable day and life
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遥远的时候
我的天空今天有点灰。。。第一次跌得那么伤,可是一点哭的欲望都没有。。我是怎么了???是我过于乐观了吗??其实心里还是会很担心的。。。
最近的我,总觉得自己好失败。。学业和音乐都两头不到岸。。以前的我,一向来学业平平的我总觉得我在音乐上比别人优秀。因为我有机会学弹钢琴,而别人没有。 曾经的我也有让别人称赞过。可是现在的我,不知是琴艺退步了呢,还是比我更优秀的人越来越多。总觉得自己好失败。。。以前我还真得相信天生我才必有用。可是现在的我离这句话真得好遥远。。何来的天份??三分天注定,七分靠打拼??也许得换成三分天不定,十分靠打拼了…
无论自己多失败都好,始终得靠自己站起来。我希望这次的失落是最后一次。勇敢地向前冲吧。保佑我。。。。